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Yayyy I'm Officially 21

Sooo I'm Officially 21 & I'm soooooooooooooo !!!! happy I've been waiting for this for sooo long ..so let me tell you what I've done for my bday Ok august 18th is my bday it landed on a thursday so that night I went to a Japenese Restaurant called Benihana's with my main Unit / Family It was beautiful I had a blast it I ate a very good amount of food blue out a pussy & ate icecream even though i was sick with a cold and my period I still had a blast ..then the friday August,19th was part 2 of my 21st  celebration We went to Sin City yess The female strip club I had a blast I had drinks , Hookah , some good appetizers the sparkles that came with the drinks and my cake & icecream and of course  The strippers lolz I had a girlfriend for the day but i cheated on her with these two strippers that took advantage of my intoxication lma0 but I enjoyed it oo and i made a couple of dollers myself lmao ..see they was loving me that night couldn't get enough of CandiCane ..then the next day I hung out with my Co workers and B.Friend in Brooklyn got harassed by this dude named chris smh I don't know what I'm doing to these ppl but i drunk there too it was kind of a adventure i was shocked this whole weekend lma0 but I had a blast it was soo much fun I really needed that ..But now all the fun stops and now i need to get on my grind and do what I gotta do

My Thanks !!!

Yes I'm Turning 21 it's so over whelming I'm soooo excited I can cry ..Like I just want everything to go great and I appreciate the fact that I even made it to see 21 I can say this year really has been the best  year for me like nothing went wrong everything is going good for me & i'm soo happy and it's just soo much i want to say but for sure now that i'm 21 I do need to get on my grind after my bday imma apply for school and get my driver's liscense that should've been my first priority but you know how that goes lolz but seriously the person taht I truely want to thank is God for even having me live and breathe and feel and see and smell and taste  the world for having me wake up every morning I love him and I'm very very very thankful for it I know I don't say it much and I havn't spoken to him in awhile but I need to get back on that path but I'm asking for your forgiveness ..& Thank You !!!! once again I also want to thank my Family for being here for me I love them SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Much !!! smfh see I hate being up this late I think to much but then again this is when my  thoughts come out but Idk what I will do or what will happen to me if I didn't have them by my side & I'm sorry for my selfish & stubborn way's and if I hurt anyone in any kind of way this is my sorry and my thanks for still being here Muahzz ..

Love:
           CandyCane

New Beginnings 2011

Hello it's been a minute since I been on this but just to inform you and keep you updating ..I've just came back from my vacation .I was in Miami , Florida yes Ppl I brung My Talents Down To South Beach and I've enjoyed it 7-29/8-1-2011 Had the best time of my life .& yes I'm no longer depressed I'm happy again couldn't of been any happierI got a Job  & i'm happy with it i's doing me justice lolz It feels so good to finally get your own I'm officially Independent now I just have to save up .. oh I've moved on and no longer In Love Just living my life to the fullest besides I met someone a really nice guy but before I tell you that let's rewind a 
couple of Chapter's back ..See I kind of dug a big Hole for my self lma0 I guess you can say I'm now dealing with two ppl  (don't judge me ) I'm still single so I'm not tied down but yeah I'm talking to someone I've known from my high school dayz and I do like him clearly not as much as I did before that's a damn shame ..anyway we've been talking for 2mths nowthis month will be 3 and we starting to open up with eachother more I'm strating to understand Him and the reason on why he is the way he is I'm not gonna make it specific cause it's not my place to throw ppl's business out there but he's  deep and a mature person and that's what I like about him but there are something's that i'm type iffy about but hey I'm not gonna jump to conclusions I'm just gonna let it rock for now ..& yes I'm rocking a new look I'm a whole new breed Zaddy lolz I just feel like i'm finally living again no stress no nothing :)

The next Person that I end up Liking &  talking to I would not introduce to niether of my friends or family imma keep him to myself until a few months then i will just introduce him to my family and only two of my friends I would keep my legs closed for a year until I trust him and he wouldn't do me wrong  I will always keep it a buck with him nomatter what even if the truth hurts I just wanna do right this time and keep a healthy relationship

Candy Crushin

I really can't believe I'm crushen .Haven't had one of these since high school . My friends always say what if another girl likes him as well my answer IDGAF!!! about any female i'm not worrying about no hoes in my eyes he's already mine lolz he's one handsome man ..Im in love with his swagg my West Indies Man..The only one with an accent That I will tolerate who cares if I don't understand him half of the time in my eyes it's adorable he's adorable The little things he do turns me on all he has to do is just stand there & Smile with them dimples & let's remember CandyCane Loves a man with dimples lolz but The amount of words he say to me can only be two & I'll blush..I'll wake up with a smile on my face everyday knowing that I'll see his face but dissapointed when I don't to tell you the truth he makes my day so much better It sucks that we always speak but yet don't know eachothers name but I guarantee you He GONNA KNOW MY NAME (Wink Wink ) lma0 Imma new breed & believe imma get what I want MUAHZ !!!!

I wish somethings were how they use to be but there not and as hard as it is for me to except that this is how it is & it will never change it kind of hurts every second i think of it .There's nothing worst then loving someone that just got love for you and loving someone knowing that there loving someone else .Him being my first at everything how am i suppose to except this & move on .Why is it so easy for him to move on & hard for me ? why must I suffer the consequences ? I 'm still waiting for the day when I wake up & realize this is all a dream . I just want to be happy why can't I be happy . Nomatter where go Im going to always feel this way & it will never change . This just isn't right  I want my love but I can't have him .everyday I feel like crying .My book is filled with so many I WISH I NEVER MET HIM kind of songs i just can go on & on with me feeling down .Even though I know our relationship wasn't perfect & niether am I nor any one else & elses . Igot everything I want in my life except My Love